The Power of Clearing
Coaching Certification Program - Return to Stories

Certifying Coaches and Counselors around the world in the Clearing Process


I arrived at the Power of Clearing Coaching Certification Course in a state of anxiety and almost depression. I felt in the midst of many difficult situations in life. I had issues with the primary relationships in my life. My wife was seeking a divorce from me and I was in a unstable relationship with a girl friend and also there were some difficulties with the relationships with my children. Perhaps most of all the relationship with myself was the most strained. I was unemployed and very uncertain of my future or the direction I wanted to take. I was not liking myself and was in a place of low self esteem. In short I was very judgmental of myself. Physically I was having problems with what I think was irritable bowel syndrome.

On the Course I learnt many things. The most important aspect was learning about the clearing process. I had done similar work to this previously with another practitioner but working with Sandy made the process more accessible, understandable and much less threatening. I think whenever we are trying to break down old patterns and beliefs in our lives we are going to encounter resistance. We adopt beliefs in order to protect ourselves from perceived dangers and pain in the world. These beliefs are often adopted when we are very young. These beliefs can begin to define how we see ourselves in the world and ultimately shape who we think we are. Unfortunately these patterns are often very negative and limiting. They take away our power and prevent us from having deep experiences in life and especially in relationships. They can be strangle holds on our attainment of happiness.

The hard part for me is about showing up with these beliefs and patterns. I can think I am not worthy to take up peoples' time. I do not deserve this attention and I am fundamentally not good enough. I sense my sufering is my fault and I deserve it. Also I resist revealing some of my story because I fear that others will judge me like I judge myself. At least I want to keep an image of myself in the world as being good and valuable and worthy even if I think that I am not. So the 'crimes' and the 'mistakes' that I think I have made I would rather not reveal. I want to stay hidden. The ego, the little self, survives by remaining in darkness and by generating fear. The last thing it needs is to be exposed to the light and shown up for what it is. The main fear for me is that nobody will like me.

What I found in doing the clearing process was that rather than people not liking me I became more likable. As I revealed the truth about myself or about what I feared was the truth of who I was I made connection to others. It soon becomes apparent in doing these processes that we all share similar fears. All our stories are unique but the fears and desires and aspirations and hopes that drive us we all have in common. As I took the risk to open up and share more of myself and took the risk to be honest, even when it went against my traditional patterns, I found new levels of freedom. I found I could start joining with other people more deeply, I could start appreciating myself and others and I could begin to feel happy and hopeful.

At this point I have to say that I was impressed by the skill and professionalism of Sandy and her team of assistants. They worked with the trainess with dedication and deep insight as well as humour. This made the 9 days a joyful experience.

Although the clearing process was not directly inspired by 'The Course In Miracles' it is however very alligned to its teachings. Once the ego beliefs have been revealed the healing process is effected through forgiveness. This is one of the main themes in The Course In Miracles. For me this was a profound experience. Forgiving myself for my mistaken beliefs was hugely cleansing and freeing. It is the growing awareness that what I had thought of myself as me was not the real picture. The real me is this being of purity and innocence and actually untouched by all the pain and suffering that I have thought defined this 'me'.

Having 9 days to work in this close group of people meant we could really start to seriously dismantle negative patterns in our lives. Obviously it is a beginning and I saw how much of my daily life is influenced by ego beliefs. But as with any path in life it is important to take it seriously and be comitted. By continuing to practice the process I can keep letting go of more and more issues that block me from being present and being happy.

The other aspect of the Course that I found helpful was the section on marketing. As I am intending to start my own business enterprise in doing healing work this gave me a good start in how to proceed.

By the end of the Course I was in a very different place from when I had started. I felt more confident and much more at peace with myself. Most importantly I felt that I had acquired a box of tools that I could use any time to carry on this work on myself. Obviously many things in life are still coming up for me. I can still feel threatened by life and its situations. However if I am willing, I can now find a way to move out of these places of stuckness and return to a place of fearlessness and security.

Adrian Horsley

 
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